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Disagreeable. Prove me wrong.

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2024-09-19 16:16:41

Gm. Exploring the costs of communication. Also looking at how much communication can be moved to non-verbal. Considering the concepts that all these ppl I communicate with over the internet could easily be imaginary (created by me) or nefarious (created by someone else for another purpose not necessarily aligned with my own.) Good thing I'm not a paranoid schizophrenic, because these concepts would probably be overwhelming.

2024-09-19 16:08:31

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Of course. More likely lunar position. I believe my emotions cycle throughout the lunar month, and may well cycle on other longer schedules as well. I am not immune to emotional cycling because of gender.

2024-09-19 16:03:14

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Stay strong. Physical pain often has a physical cause, but can still be rooted in emotion.

2024-09-19 03:41:54

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I'm posting this as a slightly different reaction. My default reaction is to push back. This is part of the disagreeable nature. I've been testier today, maybe even for a few days. Just generally going harder at things that I would normally ignore, brush off, glide on by. -chillstr!
That's ok. I can accept these actions as my own, but there is a rawness to them that may indicate some form of psychological or spiritual pain.
I'll dig into this a little more - there is opportunity here, to channel these reactions into something positive.

2024-09-19 03:16:35

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Let's see - notes attributed to npubs that seem plagiarized. Events that are being dicussed and engaged by personas that would normally ignore or deride them. A feeling that sequences of events are somehow out of sequence. Similar to deja vu, but also skipping forward. Something much worse than ReplyGuy spam, where every npub has multiple spam copies that post what for now is clearly spam, but could easily be tuned to post deep fakes.
How easy is it to replicate an npub, and have an LLM trained on relay content be able to post notes in the "voice" of that npub? This is what WoT may be designed to counter, but I think it will also be countered.

2024-09-19 03:01:58

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Of course, if pain is the response to one's sensitivities.

2024-09-19 03:00:21

Gn nostr. Today was significant. For me, personally, and likely, in time, for my family. But they will never know this day was different than any other, and for myself, many days have significance, and who is to say this day is more significant than the next, or the last?
There is no past. Only my remembered experiences.
There is no future. Only my imagination of what may came.
There is no now. Observing is already remembering.
We experience. We imagine. We observe.
We feel.
What next?

2024-09-19 02:48:23

Sensing some glitches in the matrix over the last few days - or at least thin spots in the veneer of reality. Not sure what this leads to.

2024-09-19 02:42:40

Finished reading Rothbard's Anatomy of the State last night. One of the better things I've read recetly.

2024-09-19 01:52:05

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Disagree. If you pray to a given god, you are denying part of your sovereignty. There are those of us who are sovereign in body, mind, and spirit, and those of us who are slaves.
I will not fault the slaves for being who they are, but I will not excuse them because of their slavery.
This is not saying that one cannot believe in some higher power. Belief does not imply subservience.

2024-09-19 00:38:18

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Frustration always implies an imagined future state that has not been realized.

2024-09-19 00:34:37

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Disagree. In my opinion, giving to others is always selfish, as is any rational action, and any action's rationale from the point of view of the actor. We can try and tell ourselves we are acting selflessly, but this is self-deception.
Instead of denying it, embrace it! We (in general, as a species) have learned that through cooperation (which implies giving), we all benefit.
Selfishly giving to others allows us to properly economize our time. This is a good thing. We will actually be helping in the ways we can best contribute, rather than sacrificing for non-optimal results.
That internal praise? Also a good thing. This is what boosts your self-esteem, makes you sovereign, instead of a slave to an unknown master.

2024-09-18 18:23:17

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In amethyst, blocking wss:/ is working for me, (usuing two forward slashes instead of one, but didn't want to block my own note)

2024-09-18 18:14:25

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Always has been.

2024-09-18 16:08:58

Gm. Got an early start today (not by time, actually woke up about 30 minutes later than normal, but instead by productivity). I need this, last couple days have been pretty low-output.

2024-09-18 02:54:14

Gn nostr. Switched password managers today. And blocked Reply Guy.

2024-09-18 00:56:27

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She rubs the seed oil on her skin.

2024-09-17 15:50:36

Gm nostr. Wen 58k?

2024-09-17 03:03:34

Gn nostr. No day is fully as I expect it, and I take that as a sign I am living, feeling, and experiencing fully. Embrace the vision, and plans will evolve with ease..

2024-09-17 02:54:49

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Actually I think it may have been yesterday when I was wondering how bad those withdrawals actually were...
I doubt I'll ever be over it. I've quit before, once for 4 years, I think.
I didn't gain much weight, maybe a few pounds - but I am mostly carnivore. I did give myself permission to be a little more sloppy with diet choices, not care about intermittent fasting, caffeine, dairy (definitely had more cheese than usual).
You can fix the weight later. Give yourself another couple weeks to get as over the nicotine as you can, then start on other healthy habits. Like cut out food from boxes, or seed oils, whatever you want to start with.
The goal isn't weight loss, it is always better enjoyment of life - that starts with feeling better. Withdrawal is the opposite of that.